I know I wasn’t able to get through this year, clean. I’ve hurt, I’ve done things, I’ve committed more mistakes. Here’s my apology.
To all those I’ve hurt unknowingly, with remarks I thought was funny, but was actually offensive, I am sorry. This coming year, I’ll be more sensitive with my words.
To all those I’ve disappointed, by not being there when they needed me the most or by not showing up when I said I would, I am sorry. This coming year, I’ll be more committed to be present. If not, I’ll be more honest to tell you I can’t be.
To all those whom I gave false hopes, by making promises I couldn’t keep or leading them on because I was too afraid to be straightforward, I am sorry. This coming year I’ll be more considerate.
To all those I’ve offended with any of my social media posts, I am sorry. This coming year, I’ll post less irrelevant things on my accounts, and aim for more wholesome ones that would uplift more people.
To all those I’ve irritated with my attitude, by feeling entitled, or forcing what I wanted, I am sorry. This coming year, I’ll be more watchful of my actions and be less selfish.
To all those who got affected with my decisions, in a negative way, I am sorry. Sometimes I fail as a mature person, overlooking the big picture, not regarding others as much as I should. This coming year, I’ll keep making decisions that I think benefits me the most, but I will welcome criticisms more openly, and make sure to learn from the wrong ones.
To all others whom I’ve caused any kind of pain, hurt, or discomfort in any other way. To all others who were expecting an apology from me, this is it. I am deeply, sincerely, sorry.
I know I can’t always come clean, I can’t always think straight, I can’t always be nice, I can’t always act right. Even if I try hard, I can’t be able to. And because of that, I know I’ll come across people I’ll only hurt, for that I apologize.
To you, if I’ve done you anything wrong. I am sorry.
Finally, I forgive all of those who’ve hurt me, disappointed me, did me dirty, cheated on me, lied to me. Every single one of you who tried to put me down, I offer my wholehearted forgiveness. I am letting go of the bad feelings, and bitter thoughts, but not the lessons. I have yet to prepare and decide for any possible reconcialiation, but above all that, I am letting go of the thorns you’ve stuck in my chest, I am pulling them all out myself. There’s no more hate, anger, or resentment left in me.
This coming year I will strive to be better. Every day, I’ll fight to be better. Not for you to like me, but for us both to find peace. For us both to finally let go of the burden that’s weighing us down. Now it is our time to walk free.
xx
